Me paying attention to D/S and community made me realize some things about being a dominant. It is not so much about controlling someone else, as it is controlling yourself. I believe that precursors that lead me to this state of mind are two books:
- Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevski and
- Will to Power from Nietzsche
These two books sparked an intellectual revolution within me. Actually the inspiration for this Article came from Steve Pavlina’s blog, where he mentioned it in the linked article.
Don’t want to reveal to much, you should go and read the article.
But basically, are you doing things that are leading you to your goals? I’ve found myself wondering on the topic, but eventually came to a conclusion that I am doing fine. Currently I am suffering from the lack of information; and possible exposure to the misinformation, so I shouldn’t sweat it too much.
There is no reason to let fear consume my soul, even though uncertainty is tearing me apart on occasions. Than I see other people, and I say to myself, you’ll be fine.